ky-ish
2 oct
chorister fearfully and wonderfully made
every time i fall down on my face
i see the one who bore all my shame
i know you understand it all
so why don't i get back on my feet again
music
now playing
Sunday, November 15, 2009
are we making ourselves miserable and tragic?
1:06 AM
this feels so supernatural
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Supernatural Daughtry
Lost from the start, I might as well be on the moon Much colder than I thought even in the month of June No communication makes you feel so alone Well, all we need is patience of which I've never really known
But now it's too late, it's taking over me, it feels so supernatural And I'm pulled the other way, it's more than I can take And I'm losing hold of everything And no matter how I try, you know I can't deny 'Cause you feel so supernatural
Every step I've taken Has led me here to where you are But all that I believe in is keeping me from seeing too far Throwing out the questions, waiting for the right reply Looking for the answers, tell me will it be tonight?
But now it's too late, it's taking over me, it feels so supernatural And I'm pulled the other way, it's more than I can take And I'm losing hold of everything Well, it's more than physical, it's kind of hard to see beyond the glow And no matter how I try, you know I can't deny 'Cause you feel so supernatural
Through the atmosphere I'm seeing Glimpses of the past I'm leaving Holding on for life as we collide
But now it's too late, it's taking over me, it feels so supernatural And I'm pulled the other way, it's more than I can take And I'm losing hold of everything Well, it's more than physical, it's kind of hard to see beyond the glow And no matter how I try, you know I can't deny 'Cause you feel so supernatural
Feel so supernatural, feel so supernatural Feel so supernatural, feel so supernatural
2:33 PM
blue wall
Monday, November 09, 2009
I stare at a blank, blue wall. It stares back. It's the wall that's knowledgeable, if it remembers everything I've said to it. It knows the entire reproductive system at Secondary 4 level. It knows what Felsic and Mafic rocks are, and the description of a volcanic eruption as Paroxysmal on the Volcano Explosivity Index. It also knows (almost) the entire argument on how 'perfect' Perfect Competition is.
Most recently, it has learnt a 5 minute exhortation of glorified aptlessness with regards to the Conservation of Traditional Asian Games.
9:26 PM
Friday, November 06, 2009
Slow Dancing In A Burning Room John Mayer
It's not a silly little moment, It's not the storm before the calm. This is the deep and dying breath of This love that we've been working on.
Can't seem to hold you like I want to So I can feel you in my arms. Nobody's gonna come and save you, We pulled too many false alarms.
We're going down, And you can see it too. We're going down, And you know that we're doomed. My dear, We're slow dancing in a burning room.
I was the one you always dreamed of, You were the one I tried to draw. How dare you say it's nothing to me? Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.
I'll make the most of all the sadness, You'll be a bitch because you can. You try to hit me just to hurt me So you leave me feeling dirty Because you can't understand.
We're going down, And you can see it too. We're going down, And you know that we're doomed. My dear, We're slow dancing in a burning room.
Go cry about it - why don't you? Go cry about it - why don't you? Go cry about it - why don't you?
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room, Burning room.
Don't you think we oughta know by now? Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?
6:25 PM
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Mother: What are you doing up at this time? Son: Erm... I don't know.
11:51 PM
our faces vizards to our hearts
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
He flared up, walked out. They stared. She ran after him.
She caught hold of his arms and hugged tight "No, please don't go!" Adamant, or a self-justified action - he grasped her slender arms They were twigs Shoved aside, walked on Drove away, lamps on With pain in his heart but it had to be done and it was for the better.
Breaths convulsed, face crimson As light reflected off the streaks on her cheeks Like an open book now with no restraint, she let loose "Look at what you all have done! Now he's gone. Gone."
--
They met on the way to school, she walking from McDonald's, he cycling from home. And it's in these cases he sometimes had no choice but to think up a pick-up line or two, to make conversation, whether forced or voluntary. Perhaps its etiquette. Or being sociable. Or just trying not to be an idiot.
The boy refused to let the girl ride with him on the bicycle even though the girl was quite pretty (of course he didn't express this explicitly to the girl, for the same reasons above), so they walked. Which meant an extended conversation because to get to school on foot would mean a 15 minute walk. And conversation was so easily exhausted, to a point where only serenity and solitude permeated the atmosphere for 5 whole minutes.
Then somehow they talked about couples. And she uttered, "I think that guy was a jerk. I've found a better guy now, he's tons better than him."
Like an open book he read her, and he knew something about her told otherwise.
10:44 PM
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
i think i'm becoming the opinionated, judgemental self that i dislike
it's funny how we can be only two clicks away from reconciliation, yet I always lack the courage to make that first click
or say that first word, of a conversation that is not a mere passing remark or a "Hi" and "Goodbye".
i'm tired of subtleties and indirect conversation. i'm tired of my cowardice.